Our pictures is still in my phone.
Seriously, I don't bear to leave SG. And after all, not really on vacation mood. Thinking that I will not be able to contact my girlfriends and T, it makes my heart sour.
Okay fuck, I don't know what the hell am I thinking now -.-
The time now is 3am, and I'm leaving house at 6am to Changi Airport. Taking SQ plane. No one will be able to contact me as my phone will all the way be in flight mode till when I came back Singapore on the 3rd December 2009.
I'm meeting T later. Don't know why do I always get so excited whenever I mentioned his name, silly me.
Blame me for thinking too much, I'm worried that when I came back SG, T already have a GF. I'm scared.
I tried to give up, unsuccesfully.
I don't mind people laughing at me, being so silly to wait for something that is so impossible.
But it's alright, I'm tired to act to be strong and lied to people around that I've already given up on him and to me, he is nothing.
He do meant a lot to me. Really.
If by chance he's able to see this, I'm already at Beijing. At least I won't feel so awkward. Wo hen ai mian zi de.
Bye all readers, love you all ♥.
Mom, now he is the one who doesn't want me. I'm trying to be a good girl now. I've closed my piercing, I'm like quit smoking already. Cut down alchohol and have not been drinking ever since the break up.
Why is he still not returning back to me?
